There is silence and then there is music

Even though I speak and listen to others Iam still in silence in my head. I speak and listen but I still do not hear. In silence is where I feel safe. I can hear my self better when I do not speak. and when others speak I still hear myself better. There is so much going on in my head that the outside world only confuses me. So I therefore embrace silence. When Iam by myself you will find me in the complete stillness of my own world. And then there is a time when I will become a bit more awakened and embrace the sound of music and in this moment I become taken away from all those thoughts in my head and I can breathe a bit more deeply and it refreshes my mind to only get back to my default mode of silence and a more refreshed way of being.