monday

For there are times that my eyes

are open, but i cannot find 

my way.

The papers are too stacked

and my list have high numbers.

I feel as if i cannot move and 

undo the tasks before me.

The push of the universe

is not even enough to get 

me to budge.

I only push back in stillness

and in thought.

I don't know where to start,

what to do.

The universe is overwhelming

the papers, the jobs, the many 

different jobs.  How many 

hats do i wear? 

Is it ok? 

Am i ok?

Is this ok?

Where do i start? on this

Monday.

I will pray first and 

foremost,  for direction 

and guidance.

And i will then, slowly step into

the space of the world.  Where it

seems so vast and unfamiliar. 

There's no one to tell me what

to do.

Until i pray then my actions will be thoughtless

and come natural.

I do not have to worry.

Only believe that all this will be ok

As i walk up and down

the stairs

I see the same things that 

I pass by repeatedly.

i will do this when the time

is ready.

For now the things that 

come before are much more

needed at hand.

Like the pencil to paper

to get all the thoughts

from my mind. so that i 

can see what has been 

left behind.

As i walk up and down i feel

numb and slow to get started

on all the mundane tasks.

For they all seem so repeated

and without thought.

My mind is asking for something 

different to explore.

A new playground to run.

But still is where i end up

in the muck of papers and 

laptops and screens and files

and lines and numbers.

Balances and totals. 

Deadlines and reports.

Phone calls and voice mails,

orders and messes to take care of.

Where is the space to just sit

and stare and do nothing.

But write and and see all that is left before and behind.

Then we will know for what to

pray and what to ask.

Where to be guided and 

what is needed.

For there is nothing more important

than your sanity.  the quietness 

of your soul to see how it sits

in the midst

of the chaos that the world has 

put before you.

As you look over and around and 

down on it.  You will be given a peace

that will surround

and comfort you.

And then you will start one by

one,  task by task.

In a sense of calmness that 

was asked.

there is no need to worry

and no need to hurry

For your vessel is here

to breathe of clean and 

crisp fresh air

that only comes from not any

despair.

Go and be and stay as still as 

you may.

it  all will be ok.

Your life is being guided and 

protected and you only 

have to pray and all your

chaos will go away.