To love forever

to love forever

i know not how

i want to, I’ve tried times before

I’ve searched times that i would find,

the one that would last.

is it that i can be learned

how my heart will not be burned

by the fire that so often goes out.

to love forever

i want to know how this can be.

for I’ve not been able to see

i want to chose the one.

that i can be with until the end.

im scared that i will never learn

this love that doesn’t go away

I’ve protected myself so long

with the unrealistic expectations

that weren’t even of me

but for them 

for i was not able to choose

because of the boundaries that 

i never learned to have.

the self love that never was

the confidence that never came.

for my love was a shame.

i will not stay when it goes array

when the pain of my heart

realizes that it was not real from the start.

please show me how 

to do this love forever

maybe i see that you love me 

for me.

and I can put down the walls 

and be myself

for now that you will have the 

heart for me.

the one that is meant to love me 

forever.

then i will trust and let go of everything

that i thought was built around lust

for love is not such

the love forever that i want so much

how can i love forever

show me how i can do this

for this i choose to do 

with you.

when i become scared please show

me how to talk.

for all  i know is how to block

my feelings are not use to being out

only tucked away

until it is time to walk away

from all the grey

the blue is the only hue

that i want our love to be

like the sky on a beautiful day

our love is what i want to stay

thats all i will want to do is 

love you forever

not walk away to find the green

on the other side

for you are the only one 

that i want that is suppose

to be with me

the one that i was meant to 

love forever

all the mistakes brought me to you

and for this i can now be 

the one that has learned to love 

forever

teach me love me for i want us 

to be - the one and no more two.